Who am I to tell you how to seek and find the all-confounding, all-demanding, all-providing and glorious God that is Love? Who am I to offer guidance or reassurance that might help you stumble blindly into it, as I have, over the self-inflicted wreckage of fantasy, frustration, false images, failures, hidden frailties and forlorn hope? Who am I to stick my head above the parapet and to scream, until I´m hoarse? - amid a roar of differing, strong opinions - “Keep going. Keep searching. Keep trusting in that doubt-filled longing deep within you that ´There…IS…More´” What difference will one, timid, easily-distracted, easily-discouraged, lone and fallible human voice make? We´ll never know. That´s the beginning and the end of it. The Alpha and the Omega. We´ll never know. Have Faith. I do know that listening to the drum-beat of my heart and following its guiding rhythm has been my Way and my only Way, and that it´s cut a swathe through me and the lives of others in its drive to find this Truth. That it´s swept ´neediness´ and ´ego´ and ´wish-to-please-others´ and ´desire-for-applause´ directly into my line-of-sight and lead me deeper and deeper into this Labyrinth of Life, in which we´re all held. It´s taught me, time and time again, that no-one is only what they choose to show others or what they appear to be, on the surface. It´s shown me, when I´ve looked…and looked again, with presence of compassion and absence of defence, a glimmer of my glorious but frightened, lonely and defended self, within each and all. And in that glimmer of recognition, that flash of mirrored light, I´ve felt and recognised, just fleetingly, the smiling presence of God. Disarming, energizing, all-powerful, a sacred gentleness, filling a timeless moment of eternity, with the infinite force of Life called Love
